[edit] so i had to add a vlog , due to bordem. [/edit]
; so the spring semester starts tomorrow & im kind of excited. I've always loved school and doing homework and papers and college life is thee shit. I have BIO 111 tomorrow. I love Biology so im hoping it will be pretty cool , and i hope theres some cool people in my class. I love making new friends , which is a TOTAL change from who i used to be. contrary to others beliefs i used to be super shy. i never spoke to anyone i didn't know & kept to myself. around my freshman/sophomore year , i noticed that i was missing out on a lot of shit by keeping to myself. So i shook it off real fast. Everytime i think about school , and the future i always think ' what if i never do anything with my life' like i go to Wal-Mart or some random food place and see these people who should be well in a career cooking french fries. I have always set goals for myself , but the thing i struggle with the most if ' what if i don't make it?' and it's kind of hard to sit in peoria and watch ALMOST everyone i went to HS with sit around and not do shit and i think ' i don't want to be like these people ' im HAPPY i didn't go straight off to college because my family is everything. I get to stay at home & still live the[ jr] college life. & i knew i wasn't ready to go off to college. I'm way to close to ALL my family. I mean i have a set routine [ im going to have to break one day ] i always go to my grandma's house and take a nap with my little cousin Jeremiah. My sister Whitney is still here , and i talk to her everyday. All my cousins , aunts and uncles are here. & i would be kind of depressed if i couldn't lay on the couch and watch stand-ups on comedy central with my mom almost everynight , or go down in the basement and steal my dad's cds. I mean shit would be so different , and i don't think im ready for that. My mom always tells me im in a rush to grow up , but im not honestly. I would like to go back to my freshmen year when all i had to worry about was the simple things in life. No car , no classes , no stressfull relationships . smh , and i sit back and think ' damn im old ' lmaoo even though im eighteen i can feel my whole mind frame has changed and i have grown up so much. I still have a couple things to work on [ like laziness , relationship issues , and friendships ] but , yeah.
& i watched the memphis/pistons game tonight. Rudy Gay looked beautiful on the court. i just had to add that. lmao .
& that is my first time doing a vlog [ video blog ] & it's kinda cool , i guess. please do not try and do my corbin poster in the back , he is the shit. thanx tris b ,i guess for making me do this. lmaoo TTYL
luv barbie.
personal message to pearis
[ luv you sweetie :) ]
& that's the last thing im going to say about that. lmaoo that was funny though. this is why the title of this post is "And i told her cool it baby i get coochie everyday." - Trey Songz Paper Planes remix.
so i switched my blog .. over... & changed the name [ backseat luv. ] i tried to export it , didn't work. fckin' wordpress can [ kiss it . ] uh...yeah :)